it's scizogen

Journey to e south for kk bdae

2010-09-21T23:43:00.001+08:00

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2009-12-28T00:29:00.001+08:00

whats left on the checklist

2009-09-10T12:03:00.003+08:00

ok, much have been done the past month and the following are the outstanding

1) print out of letters
2) awaiting for KT
3) email to inform

Others:
1) read up and preparation on company info
2) Manicure / pedicure
3) one week worth of wardrobe ready
4) continue on my yellow book

HOme:
1) settle my aircon conversion
2) dismantle the beds

AOB
1)hardy tadpole follow up
2)Auntie Sheila F/U

thank you...

2009-09-02T16:30:00.000+08:00

Subject: All the best!

Dear Genevieve,
It has been a beauitful journey with you all.
May all your wish come true!

Best regards,
W. Tsao

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Gen -

Just wanted to say thanks for your farewell e-mail & all the personal messages. I was touched!

I can't believe I'm actually here in Buck Island right now. It all happened so fast! Got in this afternoon & rested for a bit before having dinner at Pusser's restaurant with my mom & Allie. Carl is also on the island at the moment with his best friend.

It was great to be able to work with you too. Thanks for all the support & for putting me in positions where I can learn to think for myself :)

Will be really weird to go back to work without you around but I'm sure we'll hang out sometime soon. Tell me about Denise. When did she start work at East West?

Regards to Philip!

Always,

Ekta

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Oh Gen.

It's been a pleasure to have met you too. I'm sure we will keep in touch. May god bless you and lead you to greater adventures and paths that you have not even dreamt of.

Stay positive and continue to pursue all your dreams.

Loads of love

Denise X X

it nice to be appreciated....the dormant should become active!

2009-08-20T09:12:00.004+08:00

I've recently wrote to my ex bosses requesting for a reference letter... this is the first one that came back, co incidentally from the first boss i worked for... :)
as i read it... i started to recollect times of me as a lil girl, starting out. Full of bash, filled with passion, determination to CHEONG, to just do it, regardless... fearless and doubtless, and of cos, the many ppl tt stood by me, supported me to make my journey a smooth and better one....

- the times when james swee jus left me to run his event, with no doubt and not even feeling the requirement to be there...

- the times where cornelia said if i approve it she will cos she knows im more anal than she is

- the times where me and jo y toast each other cos it was team work tt we made things work

- the times where jo wong will call and give me a brief on the phone... and... cheekily say... its for tml u know...

- the times where kristen will throw me his credit card and say, you will need it, and left for shanghai

- the times where i worked 48hours non stop to launch party time

- the times where we ALL HAD fun....

- the times where my clients were shocked to know tt im barely 21

- the sleazy party we did

- me bashing into orchard tower to bcos of a 'request to find beautiful Thai speaking girls"

- The times where the sales rep almost fought with the pimp... aha
- the victory cheer and me downing big bottles of barons.....

* it was so much fun, so much enthusiasm.... it nice when ppl believe in you... and allow u to take ownership... it makes u move forward with such an energy tt DRIVES u...

like i always believe, its mind over body....

there will always of cos be the ppl who were envious, who were green who were upset when u were doing ok.... sign....

ppl talk abt first love, having the feeling back again, I prayed that as i continue to strive towards the light, my energy will be like when i first started, but coated with wisdom and discernment...

i recall once a boss ever tole me tt im so full of energy, zest like a molecule...
i wished i can keep tt momentum aways but being weary and careful to not burnt out as i continue to move towards the light

ok.. here the letter tt got me thinking....

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To Whom It May Concern,

REFERENCE LETTER FOR SCHIZOGEN

schizogen was employed with XXXXX as Assistant Account Manager from XXXX, thereafter promoted to Account Manager in XXXX. As Account Manager, she handled herself professionally and provided outstanding service to our clients at all times.

During her term of employment, she was able to build excellent rapport with our key client, XXXX. She excelled in conceptualizing and executing several major key events which includes;

XXXX

I am confident of her innate ability to deliver results and coming up with resourceful solutions to problems. In the period schizogen reported to me, she was able to build up an excellent track record of more than 150% of her targeted sales. I saw schizogen not only develop on a professional basis but also on a personal basis. Her sharpened communication skills coupled with her personal development as a leader won her respect of colleagues alike.

It was a most profitable and enjoyable time working with schizogen. It is unfortunate that she decided to leave XXX and I know she felt my disappointment. Her departure was a loss to our organization and I will not hesitate to have her back again for it will only mean having a strong member on the team.

Sincerely,
my ex boss....

DIET!

2009-08-19T09:56:00.003+08:00

Yes! Diet... Gen's @ it again... and i have a month... 30 days to make it into a lifestyle,into a habit... and so it goes.....

tarGET : tO SHED AWAY 6KG

HOW...

- no more sugared drinks.... h20, GREENTEA, tehOkosong peng

- slow decrease in carb intake... 50% of usual

- 1x salad lunch per week

- 1x wanton/dumpling soup/prawn soup

- 1x yong tau foo

- 1x chicken breat

- 1x fish soup

- no fats no skins

i try i try i try try....

ohmm.... ohmm......

dearie.... HELP!!!!!!

sorry dear dear

2009-08-18T14:56:00.002+08:00

things to do...

2009-08-16T01:27:00.007+08:00

there are jus so much to do before mid September arrives...and i tot its jus good to pen em down to be more focus

Work:
-Handover for all matters: By end of the week (done and F$%%ing cant wait to leave)
-China Claims (done)
-H.K Claims (done)
- Outstanding Claims (done)
-outstanding pay (done)

Personal
By Sunday
- Credit Card Bill Payment (done)
- Sub Card application (done)
- Repair my Mobile phone (done... thkx)
- Further clearance of wardrobe plan (done)
- Short Trip planning (cruise or what?) (done)
- Stack of forms to fill in (by august)
- Check status of graduation ceremony (done)
- 14 or 15? (done... 14th)
- 2 testi... (WIP, KT and LHC) (work on KTs) (done)
2 to chase..... (agreed KC, LHC,Outstanding: JTC)
Others:
- Room Re-org (left with wardrobe, small table and a lil more trash)
- Air Con repair (ok i don know what to do with the damn air con)
- Stella list of my room To Dos (done)
- Dad's new Suit (or at least a suit / photo details)
- Chars Gift ( done)

- Books to read (my yellow book)
- MICE blog and resources
- Read company information

- Exercise Regime
- diet regime
- Highlight my hair

NOTE:
before i accomplish the above, i shall play less of farmville...

of cos i know the list is a lot, but i also know tt deawei will be there to give me that gentle Ungentle push... hee hee... thk you so muchie.... muck

my dearest grandma

2009-08-14T14:47:00.001+08:00

The 7 Steps to Developing Habits (part 2)

2009-08-13T15:47:00.001+08:00

In part 1 of developing habits, I talked about associating good feelings towards desired actions. Can you associate good feelings towards taking the necessary actions to develop the desirable habit and still fail? Unfortunately, yes.

For some habits, creating those good feelings is all you need to do. For others, however, it will take a bit more planning. So here are ways that I’ve personally found effective in developing habits. Remember, once you create the habit, the hard part will be over. The challenge is just doing what you need to do long enough for it to become a habit. Tip: Go into this with a warrior’s mentality instead of a wimpy wishy washy one.

The 7 Steps to Developing Habits

1. Get clear on the end result of developing habits.
2. Develop strong enough reasons why you want the end result.
3. Educate yourself. Know what it really takes to form the habit.
4. Prepare to be attacked.
5. Get reinforcements.
6. Continue on the stairs until you reach the escalator.
7. It’s all maintenance from here.

Get Clear on the End Result
This may sound elementary but you must first know why you want to develop the habit in the first place. What is the end goal for having the habit? If the habit you want to develop is going to the gym every day, your end result could be to get down to a certain weight or be able to run a marathon or to reduce stress. Now the end result should be something that you can get excited about. Remember, a habit isn’t just something you will do a few times and never do again. It’ll be something you will consistently do until you decide to break it.

Develop Strong Enough Reasons
Once you know the end result, you must identify why you want it. You must have enough compelling reasons for doing this because if you don’t, you can easily become discouraged. Most of the time when people fail to achieve a goal they’ve set out, it’s because their reasons for achieving it wasn’t strong enough to help them endure the setbacks and obstacles. Therefore, it’s critically important that you have strong reasons for obtaining the end results because it will be the fuel that will drive your actions in forming the habits that will eventually make everything automatic.

Educate Yourself
You’ve got to know what it really takes. If you go into something blindly, chances are you will be faced with disappointment. Let’s say your goal is to lose weight. You set a goal to lose 50 pounds 3 months. Then you work on developing the habit of regular exercise and eating correctly. Problem is, you didn’t educate yourself enough to know what proper exercising and eating consists of.

So you go to the gym everyday and run your heart out and come home and eat foods you think is healthy. You also didn’t know what to expect, thinking you could probably lost 15 lbs a month every month. Two months pass and you’ve only lost 10 pounds, you always feel tired, and you’re starting to feel discouraged. If you had taken the time to educate yourself on proper exercise, dieting, and know what to expect, you’d still feel motivated and energized to keep at it. Don’t let this happen to you, be smart, and educate yourself.

Prepare to be Attacked

The greatest obstacle you’ll face in developing habits will come from your own “gremlins”. You know, the charming little voice in your head that comes up with about a dozen excuses to not take action. Persuasive little critters they are. Have you ever wanted to develop the habit of waking up at a certain time every morning? You know how it is right? The first few days might be a cinch. But about the end of the first week, you wake up at the right time, but on this day, something wakes up with you and starts a little sales pitch.

“Boy, it’s sure cold this morning. When did this blanket become so nice and warm? It’s still dark outside and everyone is still sleeping. My eyes and chest are still a bit heavy. I still feeling tired. If I wake up now, I might not have enough energy to last through the day, but if I just sleep a bit more, I’ll for sure have more energy later on. That dream I just had was so awesome, maybe if I close my eyes, I can go back to it. That’d be sweeeeeeet. Okay, just another 20 minutes, that’s just 2 snooze buttons. I’ll make it up tomorrow, I’ve done so well these past few days so I deserve a little reward…”

How many times have you had a similar experience? Some of you probably had this experience this morning! You see, this “gremlin” will be your biggest nemesis. Mainly because it knows you better than anyone else. It knows what makes you tick. It knows how to persuade you into doing what’s instantly gratifying instead of doing what you know will give you long term success. So how do we deal with this gremlin? You get prepared.

You know yourself best and you know the excuses you will come up with when you don’t feel like taking action. In those moments of weakness, if you’re not prepared, your gremlin will win. So here’s what to do. I’ve done this myself and it has worked very well.

Take out a piece of paper and start writing down any excuse you can think of that you know will eventually come up. Things like, “it’s too cold”, “I’ll just do it tomorrow”, “I don’t really feel like it”, “I haven’t seen any results yet, what’s the point”, “I just have to learn to love myself just the way I am”, etc. You get the point.

Next, write down ways to overcome these excuses. Know that these excuse making thought patterns is a habit. What you need to do is figure out a way to break them. For each excuse you’ve come up with on your list, write down one or more strategies to deal with it. You’ve got to anticipate these excuses/obstacles in advance and figure out a way to overcome them or set it up where they never come up.

Get Reinforcements

Find ways to remind yourself why you’re trying to develop habits. Examples:

Put your goal in writing where you can see it everyday.
Put a picture of the body you want with your face on it in front of your refrigerator.
Record a message to yourself telling yourself why you’ve got to keep going and listen to it daily.
If you have songs that just pump you up and get you going, listen to it.
Get support from friends and family members to help keep you accountable

The point of having reinforcements is that it’s so easy to get sidetracked. Having these things in front of you every day will remind you of your reasons why you must follow through.

Continue on the Stairs Until You Reach the EscalatorThe hardest part of developing habits is the actual developing stage. When something isn’t a habit yet, it will take focus and work. Do you think the people who have great looking physiques have to force themselves to go to the gym and eat right? No. Those activities have become a part of their life. I know this from experience. Only about a year and a half ago, I had to force myself to go to the gym. But once I’ve done it long enough, it just became a part of my life. Now, NOT going to the gym makes me feel like I’m missing something. It’s become a habit for me and is no longer a struggle. That’s the point you want to get to with any habit you want to develop, when NOT doing it makes you uncomfortable.

How long does it take to form a habit? Conventional wisdom says 21 – 30 days. It really depends on the habit from my experience. How long it takes really depends on how fast you can get to the point where it becomes effortless, but for practicality sake, set a goal to do it for at least 30 days, everyday. So your goal is to do take action on what you want to develop into a habit for 30 days so that it becomes a habit.

Regarding the 30 days, know that it’s okay to fail. You read correctly. Too many times people set a goal to develop a habit only to end up quitting just because on day 7 or whatever, they failed to follow through. It’s not all or nothing. If 30 days is too long, break it down. Do it for 7 days in a row, or 5 days, or 2 days. That’s not enough time to form a habit but it will give you confidence that if you can sustain the action for 2 days, you can do it for 5 days and 7 days and so on.

Or you can break it down activity wise. Let’s say you want to develop the habit of going to the gym. On day 4 you stumble. You used everything you could think of but that damn gremlin persuaded you to not go. Instead of beating yourself up, think of a different approach. If going to the gym and working for an hour for 30 days or even 5 days is too much, how about just develop the habit of just going to the gym without actually working out. If that is still too much, how about develop the habit of getting dressed and getting in your car. Now that might sound silly but trust me, it works. Eventually, you’ll be sitting in the car and just think, why don’t I just drive to the gym today. Gradually you’ll be able to work your way up to actually doing the workout. Keep it simple and take it one step at a time if you have to.

Once you’ve formed the habit, from this point….

It’s All Maintenance From Here
This is where you want to be at. This is what makes everything easy. Once you’ve developed the habit, it’ll no longer be a struggle. You will no longer have to force or motivate yourself to take action. It’ll be a part of your life. From here, all you have to do is maintain it. Depending on how strong the habit is, even if you stop say, going to the gym for a few weeks, your habit will eventually draw you back into going again. Now and then you might have to get back into a habit of doing something if you’ve stopped for too long perhaps due to some external circumstances like relocating and not having a gym near by, but don’t worry, the 2nd time around is a lot easier and takes less time.

Hopefully you found this posting to be helpful. One of my goals for this website is to provide you with tools to help you take action long enough to form these habits. The quotes, poems, videos, etc. are reinforcement tools to help you stay focused and motivated. So feel free to use them.

Until next time…

Love Life. Do Good. Live Well.

Read more: http://www.motivational-well-being.com/developing_habits.html#ixzz0O2wwDtJi

The 7 Steps to Developing Habits (part 1)

2009-08-10T23:37:00.003+08:00

Developing Habits

“We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then, is not an act, but a habit.” - Aristotle

How do you make doing something continually look easy? Using willpower to force yourself to do something will only last for so long. Motivation, willpower, self-discipline, these things are just tools to help you take the desired action, but they require constant effort and work.

So what's the answer? By developing habits that make your actions automatic. The goal is to get yourself to do something long enough until it becomes a habit. Once it becomes a habit, you don’t have to put much effort into it anymore. It’ll almost be automatic, and that’s the beauty of creating habits that align with your goals and dreams.

In this post about developing habits, I will mainly focus on creating new empowering habits opposed to how to break old disempowering ones. First, let’s take a look at how habits are formed.

Why We Form Bad Habits

If you think about it, habits are relatively simple to develop. Look at all the habits you don’t like. Now let me ask you, did you have to work hard at developing the habit of overeating or watching too much TV, or sleeping too much, or smoking? Of course not. You just did it long enough, through repitition, until it became a habit. Why did you keep doing it though?

If you examine your undesirable habits closely, you will find that they all have something in common. They all give you some type of feeling that is rewarding to you. Why do people spend hours watching mindless television? Why do people who smoke smoke? They do it because it gives them a certain feeling, in this case, relaxation, stress reduction, or even excitement.

You see, we’re not addicted to the actual activity. What we’re addicted to is the feeling that activity gives us. Just think of any habit you have that you find undesirable. What positive feelings does it give you? Know that you’re getting a “reward” for those bad habits, that’s why you continue doing it. We don’t do things habitually that makes us feel bad, at least not at the moment that we’re engaged in doing it.

For example, you might overeat and feel bad afterwards, but while you were eating, you probably had a big smile on your face as you licked the juicy BBQ sauce off your fingers. Same goes with smoking. You might keep saying to yourself you’re going to quit after you just smoked, but while you were smoking you were probably just enjoying the state of relaxation.

This is the main reason why people set a goal of developing a good habit, such as regular exercise, and fail. They associate bad feelings to it instead of good ones. So how do we associate good feelings? Just think of disciplining a child. If you want a child to do something without forcing them, you reward them, give them something that makes them feel good. So the secret is to find a way to associate good feelings to the activity you want to develop as a habit. There are lots ways to accomplish this. Here are some ideas.

Ways to Create the Good Feeling

Reward yourself immediately after you’ve taken action.- You want to give yourself something that will make you feel good, something that you normally wouldn’t do. Just make sure it doesn’t contradict the habit you’re trying to create. Don’t reward yourself by binging on fatty foods if your habit is to eat healthier foods obviously.

Focus on the end result. - Why do you want to create this habit in the first place? Think about the feelings you would get if your habit was already developed.

Think about the consequences of NOT following through. - Create and associate pain to not following through. Imagine where you’d be years down the road if you don’t create this habit.

Imagine where you’d be 6 months, a year, 3 years from today if this habit is now a part of you.

Think about what feelings you’re looking for and find other things you can do that give you the same feeling and combine them. - For example, if the habit you’re trying to create is to workout everyday and the feeling you get is a feeling of power and confidence and you happen to have a particular song that when you listen to gives you that sensation, listen to it while you workout.

So now that you’ve found out some ways to associate some good feelings to engaging in the habit you want to develop, you’re all set right? Not quite. Unlike bad habits, good habits take focus and work to develop. Why? Bad habits give you instant gratification, while developing good habits usually don’t. Most of the time, you’re going to need to push and motivate yourself to perform the actions you’re trying to develop into a habit.

Habits to kick off

2009-08-10T23:19:00.003+08:00

A great observer once shared these with me....

Habits... that one will be better w/o

Picking food the moment one get home
not taking a shower immediately
lying in a bad position after food
occasions where u don remove your contact lens
not exercising
overeating... and getting fat
not moisturizing enuff

.....

common sense us uncommon

2009-05-08T09:30:00.000+08:00

* Hard work: All hard work bring a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty.

* Laziness: A sleeping lobster is carried away by the water current.

* Earnings: Never depend on a single source of income. [At least make your investments get you second earning.]

* Spending: If you buy things you don’t need, you’ll soon sell things you need.

* Savings: Don’t save what is left after spending; spend what is left after saving.

* Borrowings: The borrower becomes the lender’s slave.

* Accounting: It’s no use carrying an umbrella, if your shoes are leaking.

* Auditing: Beware of little expenses; a small leak can sink a large ship.

* Risk-taking: Never test the depth of the river with both feet. [Have an alternate plan ready.]

* Investment: Don’t put all your eggs in one basket.

long long one time

2009-05-06T19:08:00.002+08:00

its been the longest while since i last blogged really.
too many things happened and well too lil time to blog...

the few good things tt happen....
1) Annette's moving back
2) fok's getting married
3) joey's getting married too
4) kickstart a blading interest group
5) me and deawei spending a lot of time together and feeling quite good abt it....
suprisingly... the "too much of each other " syndrome only sinks in once in a very very blue moon....
hahahah
6) Sandra's attached with someone... and she seem happy
7) June, Reg, Jen Woo, anna are all pregnant

The not so good....
1) my confusion abt my job....
sign.....

lalalal

check it out

2009-02-23T13:21:00.000+08:00

wen you drive the demand... the downlines should cater and supply mah!!!

2009-02-19T18:07:00.002+08:00

Dear XXX

Greetings from XXXX.

Thank you so much for the info provided so far.

We have thus went into detailed planning and discussion to find out more about the WDA funding and the courses available.

I’ve made an enquiry with TMIS with regards to the tourist guide course and to my disappointment, the intake is close for the year when we are only in Feb!

This is really disappointing and I hope that ADW and SIMT can consider opening more classes to cater to more students considering the fact that as a nation and at a time like this, many organization are turning to training and utilizing the funds that the government catered for. An increased in response is expected and thus should the courses available be.

Thank you for your kind attention and look forward to some good news from you.

Many thanks.
ME LA

tole me...

2009-02-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

Safari Zoo Run route Map

2009-01-31T11:18:00.003+08:00

something to remember... something to share...

2009-01-30T12:45:00.002+08:00

Sent: Friday, January 23, 2009 3:00 PM
Subject: An overdue e-mail from me ... so it's just for your reading pleasure only

Hey gal...
Sorry, cldn;t talk to you much last week! Anyways hopefully this mail helps sorts your thinking out or somewat helps...

….XXXXXXXXXX......

... To have ur heart broken is entirely another experience. To have ur heart broken means that u've exposed yourself in the most vulnerable ways to someone you perceived as worthy. Personally, to have my heart broken means that I've allowed my heart's protective barrier to not only be penetrated, but to be torn down completely.

Broken hearts, many times, result in broken spirits, and your spirit is what characterizes your personality and the functions of your mind. A broken spirit makes us question areas in our life we once thought were secure and stable. We subconsciously find ourselves asking "Why?" when there's really no logical explanation. Those of us who have encountered broken hearts must go through a reconstructive period, piecing back together our lives, our identities, our perceptions, and our independence.

You, a dear friend of mine , is plagued with a lost and confused mind, and all I can do is to offer u words of encouragement. It is not my place, or anyone else's place as a friend, to criticize u and the choices u have made in ur relationship. Remember, wherever you go, people’s gonna make this this statement “ See I told you so” ... It is hard to avoid being judgmental.. cos I'm one such culprit but it is my responsibility as a friend to let u decide how you wld like to grieve in ur own way. All I can do is to offer my ear to listen, my shoulder on which u could lean and cry and my encouraging words with hopes of enlighting ur darkness.

Just move on in life... Know yourself, love yourself, and appreciate yourself. Capitalize on your abilities and continue to shine like the star that you are. Don't allow your surface to become dull with bitterness when your radiance has served as a guiding light for so many others. Come to the realization that "Why?" is a rhetorical question. It is not for you to answer. Love is not logical. Love is not rational. Answers that seem nonexistent mysteriously become evident over time. Take time to hear. Take time to analyze and evaluate. Take time to define yourself as an individual. Don't let an unfortunate twist of fate regulate the unlimited assets you possess. Be a diamond in the rough. Be the color turquiose standing out from all others.

Be a woman among girls. Be love and all that it has to offer. Be you and be comfortable with you.

Well, i have no idea if i did ease you with my boring theory but whatever the case is, ultimately it's your decision, the ball was never in his court when it comes to loss ... (",)

Cheers …
M

" Thank you for your note... and thank you for being there...."

my companion

2009-01-13T17:48:00.003+08:00

those that knoe me will prob know me for losing things...

quite frankly im one of those who either have half a dozen of pens in my bag or none...

this xmas... i was given a pretti pen... hmmm.... does it mean i have to take special care now??

我的pen... 我的伴

delayed broadcast

2009-01-03T12:55:00.002+08:00

its already the 3rd.. and yes... im only at the pluses and minuses of 2008

+ssss
Manage to convince my parents to redo the home layout and everyone is getting the space we longed for

Left the island and my comfort zone

Got to be really close to a bunch of fun girlies... the only blessing in disguise

ah fok proposed and succeeded...

annette have a baby...

i got reaquainted with an old time crush! hahah

im done with my studies

climb the great wall

did the real run!

let me be myself

2009-01-03T09:23:00.001+08:00

原来的我

2009-01-03T09:21:00.000+08:00

audit 2008

2008-12-31T01:00:00.003+08:00

its the yearly review time....

1) academic wise... im thankful that i m graduating after jan 19 with one more paper... really wanna thank each and everyone who has played an important role all these yr in my studies... thank you... and yes im happy withthe results and the few distinctions i got

2) savings... hmmmm.. i cheat a lil... don ask me what and how... but yesh.. i think i manage to achieve the resolution too

3) project p is a challenge.... hee... after.. its an issue for the last 10 odd yrs.... ok... need some time... 2009... lets make it happen

4) quite good... simple resolution that was achieved

5) lose weight... well i din gain.. does that count? anyway... this will be an ongoing resolution....

heee heee....

nice

2008-09-05T14:26:00.000+08:00

Song lyrics Baby, Don't You Break My Heart Slow lyrics

the new mrt

2008-08-31T22:48:00.002+08:00

Could this possibly means that Alien land is

brought closer to tomato world?

needs versus wants

2008-08-20T12:51:00.000+08:00

the boss did her lil once in a while pep talk and yeah it did shed some light in whatever personal situation i'm in.

quite frankly... there were many twist in my life this last two weeks... man... the kind of emo roller coaster was kinda like those back in Busch garden days way back.

anyhow... the boss shared about something and here's how it goes....

HAPPINESS should be Now... it should not be a pursuant.
Meaning... if u need to pursue and search for happiness it probably means that you are NOT happy now. and IF you are not happy now.. only u can help yourself. you can argue that its English.. but how true can this be right... u need to be happy... rather than to be in search of happiness always...

:)

anyhow... she shared about something else that struck me... its about doing what NEEDS to be done rather that what you WANT to do

back to Masow hierarchy of needs... yeah yeah.... this can be quite painful and this can be quite unnatural. but than again... NEEDs are essential... and after all WANTS can just be wants.

ok... all in all... i've managed to pick up the pieces... but piecing them together will take time and effort. The good thing is I found the pieces... but the other things is putting them back together. Its only when you start to work on it... then u will realise if you do have all the pieces required right!

ok... tts all for now and for today....

btw... ive changed my sms ring tone.... and also my phone ring tone... hope to get the boy's good morning ringtone tonight :)

done with assigments... ONE

2008-08-17T18:19:00.003+08:00

to much relief, im finally done with all the assignment one... all three of them... it will be a while before assignment 2 hits the fence again.

at least a sense of relief. been doing lots and lots of soul searching, personal reflecting... and also alot abt work.

the coming week will have me facing a lot of new challenges and turning point. Well, I've sorted my thoughts... heard what moo has to say... or rather said before... came across the article from Adrian... and also prayed about everyting....

wow wow wow... im suprised at how much Ive came to terms with in this short 7 days and how much i realise in life and its simplicity. Ive been too complex.. and been approaching life with too much ideal ideas... when it should just be so simplified.

thou its been difficult... but im thankful for all these realisations... cos these makes me view life in a total different perspective... and only you can make me do so... :)

i smiled....

2008-08-14T14:13:00.000+08:00

I smiled.....

J: Where are you?
G: Still at work.
J: Had your dinner?
G: Nope. On my way to school
J: So cute... U brought your pencil box and water bottle?
G: Ya Ya... there are all in my strawbery shortcake bag

muhahahahah

THE BLACK HOLE

2008-08-09T09:18:00.002+08:00

in an empty and hollow room

some people seek solace

some people are in search of the slightest dust and pin drop dust

some people choose to bath themselves in the warmth of each other's embrace

some people choose to leave their separate lives

in the midst of uncertainties

some people choose to look forward and live life

some people let life go

the a room filled with darkness

some people will light a match and bring the light

while another may yell in despair

the very hour of your dawn

another may be at its dusk

just when the road is straight ahead... heading north...

its straight too down south

while some constantly seek opportunity

other wallow in it

who is who in whose

is an uncertainty in its own

stop me......

2008-08-05T00:33:00.005+08:00

just couldn't resist the temptation and got myself this...

and i totalli love it...

and this too!

i tot i was gonna limit myself to the boy's gift and that pair of jwest shoe only!

been a while

2008-07-30T00:49:00.001+08:00

its been such a long time since i last blogged. and truly its been a really busy and hectic week....

2 months into the job and i'm almost involved in everything thats happening right now... bow wow wow....

anyway in a few days time... its gonna be the boy bday and im so excited to present the gift to him!

can this be sung at the end of the day?

2008-06-30T23:32:00.002+08:00

think this is such a beautiful song... those at the cross roads..... if you can sing this and truly mean it... then you're ready!

alone time

2008-06-23T23:24:00.004+08:00

after much consideration, i booked myself on the FIRST Class super luxury bus and made my trip to KL alone on saturdaY to meet meow meow and the rest of the boys and girls. to me and most ppl.. its kinda like a lame act rite... to spend most of sat travelling over to genting anD leaving in the morning on sun... nonetheless i did it cos i was longing for soMe reminiscence of those days where i took a greyhound bus trip for 3.5 days in the States!

it turn out to be excellent alone time for me.... the seat was fantastic and i catched a few movies on board! u know... Evan Almighty is really a great show and it seemed that all was kinda planned BY GOD in a sense... this bus trip was really fruitful!

1) I got my away time just like i had imagine... watching movies... do some soul searching

2) when i watch evan almighty i was like GOD was really trying to tell me something... abt my job... abt my relationship...
" sometimes we pray for LOVE we pray for success... do we expect it to just appear like that! do we expect the feeling to just overwhelm us and come upon us like that... or do we tap on the OPPORTUNITY that was given and work on it...

It was such a hard hit on the nail for me... I've prayed for LOVE and I ve prayed that i can be successful @ work to GOD before...and sometimes wondered if he heard my prayer even when GOD had already given me a good man and in a sense a new work environment and a great opportunity to prove myself... like in the show... i can either take it up and make it happen or just continue praying!

ok... i ve decided and yes i will chant tis every morning " im successful, powerful and beautiful!" muhahahah

proud Owner

2008-06-16T01:02:00.006+08:00

after a few IT Show and alot of pondering plus a few failed attempts

I've finally got myself the printer I've always wanted...

muhahahah....

Sex in the City... and ME and JOEY

2008-06-03T10:45:00.002+08:00

Joey, Ann(Joey’s bubbly fren) and myself went hit the cinema and watched Sex in the City last night… that my last form and R&R till I’m done with my exams. Must say the show was pretty good except for the fact that something went wrong with the reels at one of the INTIMATE Scenes and you can imagine the crowd in the cinema going boo boo…

Well, as the boy puts it… im so emotional and he is probably right… you know… I tend to think a lot of watching movies… and you can imagine… a movie abt that many girls = girls in their shoes in her schizo world this many times. HA HA

Anyhow… the movie was great and the company too! Its one of those few times me and joey get to watch a movie together… you know…. I thank GOD for the friendship I have with her. She has been such a nice friend who never judge and had always stood by me and accepting me as I am. She will always be the “manly” one.. To make sure I’m home safely and insist that I have to text her to inform her. And she is also one of the few that will call to make sure im home… How nice right…

Here’s a text from her this morning and sums our friendship so nicely…
“Babe yesterday’s movie there was a scene where the friend was very fierce to the guy who ditched the bride when their car crossed… think it was such a powerful scene. Reminded me of our friendship. Thanks for being such a sweet beautiful part of my life. Cheers to a great Tuesday J love you”

“And I love you too!”

our times in usa

2008-05-17T01:31:00.004+08:00

got a suprise msg on facebook from heather...and im so pleasantly surprised.... its been like so many yrs ago when we were in USA... and when she was the receptionist at the intl housing village we stayed.... over the years we lost touch... but she is one great person ive never forgotten....

happy to know that her cinderella story came true and she is happily with her prince from ireland and they are happy parents now...

here is... mr and mrs stephens and their lil one!

Add to cart...

2008-05-15T13:51:00.005+08:00

I've happily started my online spree...

Thks to BudgetChic! I've found La reroute and the following...

virtual shopping

2008-05-15T03:25:00.005+08:00

besides being a full time student the last few days... ive also been very faithful in tracking my usual blogs as well as to look for more blogs to read... getting tips on where to shop eat blah blah...

speaking of which...here's my first purchase after " window shoppinging" for the last few days... an auspicious cufflink from Dorisworks . I plan to weaR this on my first day of work...

muhahahah

By the way, as im starting work really soon... kinda took some time off to give my wardrobe a lil re org... and i am going to start a library of clothes which i can wear to work for reference...

i;a;a;a;a.....

i googled bored

2008-05-06T18:11:00.003+08:00

i googled bored cos i was indeed bored....

i truly dislike the life of being a student with constant submission of countless assignments... yes im whining and yes... im surrfering from last min anxiety and YES... i was embracing buddha's feet at the 11th hour....

and yes... IM so bored of being at home and doing my assigments....

so i googled BORED and guess what enlightenment ive received....

Here are a few tips to turn the pattern of boring that limits your brain, into a patterns of enthusiasm, interest and inspiration to others around you.

Since interest and enthusiasm are as contagious as boring is destructive why not

…1. Start your day with a quote that inspires you…. Helen Keller said, for instance that Life must become a daring adventure or it is nothing at all…. What’s your best quote? Why not create one of your own to inspire you to find interest in the things you feel called to do today.

2. Laugh – because laughter releases enzymes in your brain that foster interest and new learning. Have you noticed that boredom rarely follows when people cultivate new approaches to old problems – and when they go after the adventure of any task.

3. Listen or move to music while you work, and allow the rhythms to reboot your brain for the adventure you can bring to even the most ordinary work. Did you know that music literally moves your brain waves and changes your moods?

4. Play games, exercise, go to lunch with a friend, but do one cool thing a day for you and for your well-being.

5. Practice inspiring others who tend to get bored or who limit your circle with negativity.

6. Follow a popular, interested person around for one day, and imitate some of the things that person says and does at work. Each time you model enthusiasm or interest in what you do … your brain will build new neuron pathways for that pattern.

7. Be careful to review new research on the negative effects of venting, before you throw your reasons for boredom out into a circle. We miss the opportunity to make a shift in the brain’s patterns when we vent rather than take steps to alter our course for enthusiasm. Eventually the brain's hippocampus will convert your new pattern for enthusiasm … and root interest into your brain’s basal ganglia ... through dendrite brain cells connectors.

You've got it -- interest will replace boredom and negative communication to others that results.

So you will find yourself becoming the interesting and positive person you’d like others to see in you.

Before research proved otherwise … we settled for the fact that some people were victims to boring practices and fate was not on their side. The opposite is true … we now know that we can choice daily whether we smile or sneer at the tasks we do – and that even the most ordinary tasks take on interest and enthusiasm to people who pattern their brains for adventure and inspiration.

Turns out it’s pretty much completely up to you, but sadly whenever you make choices for terminal boredom, you’ll likely impact others who could have made it with one word of encouragement or interest.

in a nutshell

2008-05-04T11:33:00.003+08:00

in a few lines... the below sums up what I used to do in the island... or does it really...

Job Details
International Marketing Executive
Date Posted: 30 Apr 08

To undertake the role of Marketing to pre-arrival Chinese markets (i.e. China, Hong Kong, Taiwan);
~managing below-the-line marketing collaterals,
~marketing initiatives targeting post-arrival tourists
~and management of term contractor for travel show booths.

Requirements:
~Diploma / Degree in Marketing, Mass Communications or Business Administration
~4-5 years of relevant working experience
~Regional or international marketing exposure preferred. Agency experience advantageous.
~Written and Spoken Chinese strongly preferred.
~Resourceful, perceptive, proactive with good initiative
~Creative team player

the letters...

2008-04-16T23:54:00.002+08:00

I gave and letter and a phone call on friday and got back a letter today...
yes... everything is coming to a reality.

someone once said to me... never stay in your first job for more that 3 yrs and naturally if you are in a job for more than 5 yrs... you'll probably not leave the job...

I left my first after 18 months and finally, after 3 3/4 yrs... i moving out of the island. ive started packing already... cos there is jus so much to pack... so much i've accumulated and so much ive contributed.

frankly, im as excited as im anxious. Ive met tt ppl at the other side... ive heard them speak... ive seen a few sides of the people and in a while i will be joining them...

i starting to gear myself up for the challenge and to make this work for me as well as the people tat believed in me. I pray that God will be with me and everything will work out well.

There will be a good break in between this two jobs.. as what i always believed in and you'll be suprised how ambitious i am with those "many" day.

~ Wake up at 7am everyday
~ Swim everyday
~ Read Newspaper and Trade Publication
~ Finish Assignment and Start Exam Preparation
~ Prepare the boy's anniversary gift
~ Relayout of my room
~ organize my Wardrobe
~ Catch up with friends
~ work schedule for the helper

anything else.....???

B z b z me

2008-03-19T03:44:00.002+08:00

the last few week till today and i guess till the china show is over been a madhouse for me.
so many deadlines and so many last min additions... i dare say its the busiest period so far for me in marketing... thou busy... the sucker in me kinda enjoy these moments of intensity and pace....

but of cos.... the piling work also meant i have a lot of catch up to do on other work that i kinda KIVed for a while.

Its been a lil difficult to manage the work and friendship balance... i missed the varman kids and i miss updating my blo0g... but on the other hand... i love my work. l love to be contributing ideas and not just mere execution and i love being in the action of making things happen.

a few things happened...
1) school started
2) The moose joined sentosa
3) our D&D
4) Appraisal
5) and Bonus or Not?

i pray that no matter what next steps im taking i will be true to my words and myself in fulfilling my resolutions for the year.... TO GET MY DEGREE and also for my work ethics and live up to what some shared "YOU ARE AS GOOD AS YOUR LAST SHOW" and yes... to deliver my best as every show as if its my last... or not.

tml my mgr gonna be back. hee... i have a lot to tell her. and i need to tell her soon.

yo hoo....

2008-03-12T00:04:00.001+08:00

Dear Sir/Mdm,

We are pleased to inform that you have been short listed as anOfficial for the 2008 FORMULA 1™ SingTel Singapore Grand Prix. As anOfficial, you will be required to assume roles as volunteers to helpout during the event.Do REPLY this email with a confirmation that you accept the positionstated above.Please look out on the website (www.singaporegp.sg) for the updatedtraining schedule and all other updates. Do note that you should keepyourself free for the dates mentioned, as all trainings are compulsoryto attend.All short listed Officials will be required to pass the e-modulebefore being confirmed. More information on the e-module will be sentat a later date. Kindly look out for updates through email (and alsoin your Junk mail).Thank you and best regards.

On behalf of Race Committee2008 FORMULA 1™ SingTel Singapore Grand Prix

yey... darlie smile...

2008-01-30T16:24:00.000+08:00

After much consideration, I've finally decided to get for myself that dentist look a like gadget that I've been looking at for so so long...

The Waterpik Cordless-dental-waterjet

Its actually uses water jet clean the teeth and gums!

Check out its benefits man!

Benefits:
Clinically proven to be up to 93% more effective than dental floss at improving gum health--2--
Removes bacteria deep between teeth and below gumline where brushing and flossing alone will not reach
Massages and stimulates gums
Can be used with your favorite mouthwash
Leaves a clean, fresh sensation

argh!

2008-01-29T17:55:00.001+08:00

frustrations frustrations....

im losing it.

some ppl are irritating...

Ups and Downs

2008-01-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

This week is a week of alot of ups and downs for me.

It started with Grandma falling and hurting herself real bad... then with mum's crazy frenzy abt getting a maid thinking that it will solve the problem instantaneously.... then to me trying to come out with REAL solutions to settle this problem... and finally... trying to convince the folks into it!

I don know if this is what u call generation gap or whatever, I'm losing patience day by day when it comes to telling them what to do... like what moo always tell me... and a nasty thing that often happen.... i always refuse to listen to his advice then come back suggesting that i should do what exactly he told me to months back... i find myself in a similar situation with my parents...

From the looks of it, getting domestic help seem inevitable at this stage. I'm only keeping my fingers cross that the folks will be open to the changes I'm proposing we implement... without much or any delay... and most imptly... keep their word when they agreed to the changes...
only with that... i can see through the "crowd" in e house to catch a glimpse of light that pass through them... and even amidst then... having to welcome one more member into the already packed canned of sardines.

I also hope that this is one chance for us to get our act together and throw away the long overdue as well as to introduce some new changes for the better...

I think i got unto this infectious excitement to seeing changes that started with the varmans... I'm getting all very excited whenever I'm "allowed" to make my current place better....

Just a few days ago... me and alien pop by IKEA to get all the lil we need for our own room which we gonna install in this two days! HOW very exciting... for me... its like a virgin ride down a roller coaster... where i finally do up my room... with my own ways and means... my own style... searching for my own space... after this week... i will have my own full length mirror... a dressing corner... a bag display area.. and a small loft area... as well as some space by my bed to display lil tings the alien got for me.

and with GOD's blessing... i hope i can help my family with the help of my bery good friends of cos... to finally redefine the living room area and be "re united" with my sis ONLY in the same room.

if only...

2008-01-17T18:09:00.000+08:00

there are some many if onlys and the list is as follow...

IF Only...

i've completed my degree... then i can go full force in my career and nothing to hold me back
im more eloquet
im more knowledgeble

im kinda in that self reflection mode where im asking and questioning my state of being and doing a bit of reality check...

One side of me says: ''... SLOWLY BUT SURELY..." another side of me says "... the best time is never next time... its now...

and i continue to think and to wonder...

byebye 2007 & hello miss 08

2007-12-19T15:19:00.000+08:00

We are almost half way through the first month of 2008 & it’s only till now that I've manage to seat myself down to this. I always thought I would be able to write a blog or two when I was away but guess there were just too many things to o that we in manage to o this.2007's been a great year & I must say I'm quite happy with the "results sheet" when I look at the genSolutions 2007 that I wrote last year:

..."GENsolutions 2007GREAT YEAR ought to have a GREAT starthere are a few things i really wanna do... and of course let’s start with the fun bit first

See snow... and snowboard "yes... it took place in Korea & it was such an awesome feel"
White Water Rafting " err... not yet"
Join a marathon relay... I wanna do the swimming bit "er... will happen soon... safety first"
Be more ppl oriented cos I’m really too WORK oriented all the time "YES, I’m happy to say that finally I manage to look at my workplace with another light & not view it as a battleground & be so task oriented... in 008 I will continue to do my best & strike a balance"
treasure my friends and family more "yes... I did it & I’m a happier gen... I’m also happy tat aft neglecting my sec sch frens for so many yrs bcos of work; I’m finally the one to keep the momentum going & organizing outings.
Be more selfless towards those that matters and yes.... " I think I did ok in this aspect too"
I WANNA BE THE gengen I used to be.... happy... cheery... crazy.... " with alien in my life... I’m sure"
Other point-> me did a revamp to my room finally after 25 yrs

6/8 well... I'm very happy with this & I want to thank you for being part of my 07 & making 07 such a great yr for me.

Besides the list above... I'm truly thankful to GOD for a few other significant happenings in my life this year...
1) For a great manager... she showed me what a manager should be and thou we aren't close on a personal level. I respect her & how she manages and lead the team. :)

2) For bringing my relationship with the varmans to another level... God I thank u for they are such an important part of my life & I’ve learned so much from each & every one of them & the love the children shown have been truly irreplaceable.

3) For giving me & Lau a chance to love each other cos truly we've came a long way b4 we finally decide to give each other this chance tat brought so much joy to our lives.

bye bye 07 &

2008.... i coming forth.... yey!

Jeju-Do... here i come

2007-12-17T18:18:00.000+08:00

after a lot of effort, we finally manage to settle our domestic flight tickets to Jeju... I must really thank Charmaine from KTO for her help. She had been helping me to call and do all the liaison work and I must comment her efforts and the extra mile she went for us.

2 more days b4 the alien is back and i have quite a bit to finish before he comes back to share the load + add on to my list... we spoke for the 1st time in a week a lil earlier and I'm happy to know that he is well and good...

I'm nervous cos when he gets back, it would mean... we are barely a week away from our trip and I've yet to even start packing...

In this two days.... i need to double up and...

Shopping for Jah/Chars/Varmans/Cadence
Complete the handicraft work for the pressies
Settle accommodations for Ski Resort/Jeju/Busan
Start my packing

So tat when the Alien is back... we can join forces and get ready for the following...

(20)Thank you party with B&P
(21)Batch Boys Christmas Bash @ Sentosa
(22) Home in Action
(24)Christmas Eve Party
(25)Christmas Day Lunch and Dinner
(26) Korea... here we come

... the packing... the gift wrapping... the food preparation... ah....

when the shark is your friend

2007-12-06T17:15:00.000+08:00

If you know Zhenzhi (Joey's BF), you would nv have tot of using SHARK or an animal of such nature to describe this ever cheery mild mannered man. I would dare say no one have really seen the SHARK in this man... except maybe joey herself... however, another common fren of both me and zhi actually manage to "fish" out the shark in this man... and perhaps help fulfilled on of joey's bedroom fantasy... (she will kill me!)

Jin's Wife, who happened to be ZZ ex classmate saw through this man's potential.

The man attempting to see shark... The man is the shark...

i must say im very impress with tis work and hope it will win some award.Great job jolene... and of cos.. you had a great talent too... hee...

when it felt so good to be a lil older

2007-12-05T18:31:00.000+08:00

A BIG THANK YOU

me and best best fren turn a year older last week... its amazing how we both share so much in common and have birthdays that are just a day apart...

anyway... the celebrations started early and i have a lot of you mates to thank for making me reach my mid 20s happily

I have each and everyone of you to thank

Rice: The first to bring me go birthday shopping and got me my first pair of crocs...

The marketing Babes in sentosa.... and elsin especially for all the arrangements

Gary

Bobby

E Lim

Weiqiang

Jibang

Fay Fay

Hans

CHuk
Esther

Jesse

mArk

Edwin

Faddy

Edmund Ng

Kelven for your phone call

Richard for your wishes

Reg: For the cute piggy...

Joey,Zhenzhi,Eugene and Wifey: For the surprise celebration and gift... Thank You very Much

Maki for the card all the way from Poland... it was really great effort to come out with the poem

Sis and Jason

Mum and Dad

betty: for helping to bake that so so cute cake

Of Cos the Varmans: Thank you so much and like you said" this is one birthday that im truly happy" Thank you Moo, Sheila, Jah and Chars for all the love you ve shown me.
and

to my Alien who made my bday really really special... thank you and luff luff...

it was a day where i had one suprise after another...

it started with the city getaway suprise where we get to spend some quality time together... just the both of us and then my lovely cake and pressie that's ,

check out my pressie and bday cake

P.S-> Dear, thank you 4 everything... and i love u...

Finally...

2007-12-05T16:27:00.001+08:00

Hi mates....

Welcome to my new blog...
I had finally got down to making this blog look a lil better and yeah... im gonna start updating and blogging abt my life over here.

Its a lil more privy and i can do a lot more with it...

so stay tuned!